Where did the time go!?!? continues again!

Geez...I am a slacker.!

Now where was I?

I was completely terrified at the thought of what was about to happen. I asked my husband to talk to me to distract me from what was going on. He placed a hand on my ear, furthest away from him, and then started to talk in my other ear. He was attempting to ensure that I did not hear what the doctors and nurses were saying. It worked. He did such a good job that I didn't realize that Baby A had been born already until I heard her first cry, such a wonderful sound. They proceeded to then deliver Baby B. His delivery was a little more uncomfortable as he was high up, and still breech. I did not hear him cry. The Dr's proceeded to put everything back where it belongs. I was in pain, not just feeling the sensation of pulling and pushing but pain. I told the Dr that I was in pain and he told me that it was almost over, he was almost done. WHAT THE F*CK!? Are you serious buddy?! I should not be feeling this!

They finally took me back to a room. My husband spent a little time with me before leaving me to rest....I needed it at that point as I had been up for 37 hours. They finally transferred me to the postpartum side.

I asked the nurse about the babies, but was told that they couldn't release that information to me. What?! Are you kidding? My IP's had instructed that a note be placed in the charts that I was to be updated with whatever information about the babies that I asked. I was soooo frustrated! They wouldn't even release the weights of the babies, or how they were doing. This really started to scare me, especially because I hadn't heard Baby B cry. I started to feel really guilty that the babies had been born early. I was feeling that I hadn't done my "job" well enough and now "N & J" had sick, little ones.

I hoped that "N or J" would stop by my room and tell me how things were, but I didn't have any visitors. It turns out that they tried to come see me but the nurses had put a "DO NOT DISTURB" sign on my door without my knowledge, so "N & J" returned to their room not wanting to bother me.

The next morning came and I was so frustrated that I had no information so I texted "N". She responded right away, and said that she would be there soon. I was sooooo relieved! I couldn't wait to see her! She came down and gave me the much needed, long awaited update. Baby A was 5lbs 12oz, 19.5 inches long, and Baby B was 5lbs 10 oz, and 19 inches long. Baby A was already off any assistance with breathing. Baby B was still on the monitors and breathing assistance. I hadn't heard him cry because he wasn't breathing yet. His heart was still beating but he hadn't taken his first breath. They had to work on him and finally got him stabilized. I found out then that they found a "true knot" in his cord after he was delivered. Had we proceeded with the attempt of a vaginal birth, he would have been in trouble, and an emergency C-section would have been required. So glad that things happened the way that they did.

The babies and I were all released on Friday May 7th.

I cannot say enough times how blessed I was to have embarked on this journey with "N & J". They are amazing people, who are already amazing parents. We consider them family now, and cannot imagine not having them in our lives.